if i lose you (i lose everything)

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I think I need a rule book
So I know how to talk to you
I'm sorry it's been a while
But I figured out
Some things about myself
That I'd like to share but

You first
Did you ever get lost in New York
Like we said we would but never got around to it
Sorry if it's weird to ask
I'm sorry

But I think about you
I think about you
When I write when I sleep
When I need someone to talk to
It's new
But it's true
Singing the songs we lived to
I'm learning to be human
And sometimes that's hard to do

If I lose you I lose everything
If I lose you I lose everything
If I lose you I lose everything

Pinky promise by the bleachers where we met
Declaration of Distance Friendship

Dude, I swear if you leave me again
I'll lose those 10 years and pretend
It never happened

But you're still in my bedside drawer
with the necklace from Jersey
I'm torn
It's hard enough these days without you
5 min from my front door

We'll say "Hi" like we're strangers
I don't know why
It's a lot to unpack right now
Sorry how is the family
They must be proud
How long are you in town?

Cause
If I lose you I lose everything
If I lose you I lose everything
If I lose you I lose everything
If I lose you I lose everything

I lose every memory
I lose years of me
I lose every possibility of finding me
I lose autumn swings
I lose carving trees
I lose grass stains
I lose everything

I found oxygen
I found midnights
I found dancing in the rain in her headlights
I found peace
In the city
I wish I never had to leave

If I lose you I lose everything
If I lose you I lose everything
If I lose you